temped life

Have you ever wondered why are so men we are temped? It seems like every where you look there it is. At work the way some dress, on TV, magazines, and movies. WHY I ask myself, it’s not like I go out looking for this. Or is this so programmed in in my mind that I see it everywhere. I see they way some are dressed and it scares for when Katie gets bigger I do not or will not let dress that way. What are some thinking or not thinking it seems that the more I try to stay away from this the more I see out there. Well that’s just my thoughts for the day. be blessed

Information lost

Has anyone told you before that if you do not use something on a regular, you could lose? I felt that way at work the other day. I was working and saw these six guys walking around Lowe’s I could see that they were Japanese by the were dressed in the coveralls and their name tags. One of them asked me for help but I was busy with another couple at that time so quickly I told just a minute please in in Japanese one of the few things I could remember. It was funny because the look on his face like this guy with a funny hair cut just told just a minute in his own language, the rest guys in his starting talking really fast way more than I could understand. I could understand more then I could speak when I was living in Japan. I was fun that way. I wish I could remember more than I do at this time. but it was fun to to think back on the fun of living overseas. be blessed ryan

a little lost

I have been feeling kind of down lately and it Melissa to point this out to me. I have been on edge lately snapping at her and having little patients we the kids. I don’t know if from losing Grandma or having a job that does reward anyone who does more what the job requires/ wants more than it gives. Wanting to start school again but not sure which way to go/ not doing as well as should to get into the nursing program. Plus I feel that I’m not providing enough money to take care of my family, we don’t live beyond our means but money just seem tighter the ever right now.

I feel lost and not sure where to turn to. I pray about those things but sometime think that pray is not enough. This feeling of being lost is killing me. How can you lead your family if I’m lost in my own place? I don’t want to sound like I’m whining I’m just confused right now. I know it unfair too Melissa for me to be trying to figure my life out when everything that I do effect more than just me it hurts us. SO that’s where I’m at this time. and this keeps coming back to me. Be blessed

Psalm 121

1 I lift up my eyes to the hills—
where does my help come from?

2 my help comes from the LORD,
the Maker of heaven and earth.

sharing

Melissa and myself are going share this site now, so that she can post some more too. be blessed

almost there

When I was young we grew up on a farm up just north of Grand Rapids, and we use to come down to see my grandma who lived just outside of Manchester. When we almost there we would pass this large radio tower and we knew we were almost there. Telling that and us just a little bit more made that long ride seem bearable.

Now that I’m grown up I still see that tower and think am I almost there? It funny how we see different things to show that we are almost there, it could milestone in our life, finishing school, getting that job you have worked so hard for. Or just something that you only know on the inside. I keep looking for my tower to see if I’m almost there or maybe that tower is just blocking my path because I’m all ready here

its been a while

Yea it has been a while since my last post. I lot has happened since then, I have tried for couple of different jobs, the kids are getting bigger, and my grandma passed away last week. she was a great lady who just loved life and loved her family. Well its a start and will try to post more .

todays thought

Do you ever think about unanswered prayers? I do at times, or how we are placed in the right place and time for just the right reason.

Once upon a time ago I was engaged to this girl I knew in high school and I was in the Navy. And for whatever reason it didn’t work out, and another way I ended up going out west to the corner of 2nd and Columbia and meet this woman I thought was cute. We ended up moving to Michigan for the summer and then back to Oregon and finally back here to the Great Lakes. why did we end going to the going to the Church of Christ ,Why I wondered at that one point in my life how did this all happen, was it by chance that all this fell into place for Melissa and I. We have had some great times and some not so great times on this ride of life, but still I thinks that God had a plan for me even before I knew him. And if he had this plan for me he must have had a plan for Melissa too, so I had to travel across the many states to find this person who kept bugging me to go to church with her.

My mom and step-dad knew each other as kids their dads worked at the same shop, all these years later they find each other and are now just as happy as one could be. That very plan can confuse me at times, how that some of us fight just to keep what little we might have and yet others seem to have the world at their finger tips, this unwritten plan that only God knows for each and every one of us. Is going to be a mystery right up to the end and someday we will all figure it out when we start the next leg of life in the kingdom of heaven. I must trust in God and wait for him show us the way. be blessed

Almost three weeks later

Well we are almost three weeks into being parents for the third time/ And it’s going well. Melissa is doing awesome balancing three kids and the home she is doing great and I could not be more  proud of her. Katie just loves having a little brother and Connor just wants to touch him but is not so gentle. as for me I just love being a dad. the long not so great but the rest is not so bad. be blessed and thank you God for our Elijah  

The other half

A few weeks ago, back after Tom came from seeing his brother out in California. He was talking all the fancy cars and the money out there and then you see a huge homeless population out the other half. When was talking someone had said that I could be the other half to the others.

Which lead me to starting, I also in the eyes of the other too. I don’t have a fancy but I own three of them at grand total they value about $ 4,000 for the whole lot of them, I own our house my dad and build, I have three wonderful beautiful children, a wife that could ask for a better one, my mom and dad both love me, a sister and brother who a great people with their families too. And a great and loving God that will be there until the new beginning of the leg of our life.

Granted it would be nice to have some extra cash around but it will not ruin my life not having any extra. Because I (we) have what some lack or don’t have in their life. But why do we seem to want what the other half has. My home is basic square home four walls and some windows, but it so much great then living card board box or not even having box at all. Our cars get there where we need to go. And I could do without my family or friends, which is the other part of the family.

So I guess I am the other half. We all hold riches that some else might look at and say wow I wish I were that person look what they have.

So it begins

Last night about 7 something Melissa tells that she is having some contractions, so it begins. About two years ago when Connor at the 34th week we started the same thing. Contractions off to the hospital back home off and on for two weeks then comes the baby.

So I called my mother to warn her that the odds where that I would call her over to watch the kids, oh yea at 11ish we call and off to Foote hospital we went and get her hooked up to monitor her contractions until it was time to go home. No active labor just contractions and we are right where two years ago funny how the works our kids like making go to the hospital late at night. So that’s where we stand. Be blessed and if you could pray for our family thanks Ryan